We have had a good day today — we went for Yana’s medical check up (which is a joke by our standards) — she did extremely well.. even when they poked her to give a TB test — she just said “owie” and did not cry or anything. She did try to “cheat” on the eye exam — everyone thought it was so funny — Her eyes have to be looked at first thing when we return… she has crossed eyes and she tilts her head a lot to focus on things…. she can see, but she has to hold things very close up to see them- I have painted her fingernails and toenails (which she LOVES and showed them off to the Dr.s at the medical exam) – but if one gets a little nick on it, she wants it fixed a.s.a.p.!! Her fingers are so tiny — but she notices a flaw!
We are having discipline issues — and really just need structure back home– Abby doesn’t understand a lot of it — and it causes her stress. However when we went to dinner tonight – Abby saw somethings that let her know the world is not a “safe” “nice” place — she feels unsafe here – I told her we are rescuing Yana from this type of life…. she just cried herself to sleep last night and begged to go home — We are doing all we can to help her through this transition and to help her “feel safe” here — but we can only do so much and we just spent time in prayer for the Holy Spirit to comfort her in her heart and mind.
We took a taxi to a place where the Holt staff told us was “western style” food — but when we arrived, we could not recognize anything. The streets were packed with people – the only thing we did recognize was Pizza Hut — so we ended up there. It wasn’t your typical PH- It was nicer and the menu was extensive — Everything from pizza’s to Chinese food and specialty coffee’s and more — Yana told the server what she wanted — which was spaghetti — it came with “meat” and she picked every last crumb out… she does not eat anymeat except fish and chicken! It was so frustrating finding somewhere to eat — we were hoping not to eat fast food and have “real western food” — (I need Cracker Barrell or Chick Fil A when I get home!!!) — When you don’t speak the language and can’t read Chinese Characters — you are left with just making your way off of pointing and gesturing — We were all just stressed during dinner –
We returned back to the room and the girls took a bubble bath and shower. I used Google translator and told Yana we were going to do family devotions and explained what that was… and told her she had to be quiet and listen to baba as he read Scripture to us. She was as still as I have ever seen her (of course I had just touched up her nails and she did not want those to get messed up!) – she just looked around while we prayed — she will learn– it will just take time… she doesn’t understand what we were saying, but I prayed that the Holy Spirit would interpret it for her and minister to her heart and mind –
She goes to bed really nicely — I laid with Abby as she cried herself to sleep — she came and tried to comfort Abby — then Bob laid with her and she went right to sleep — no problems.
Yana is so anxious to play piano or music of any kind… she is begging for it — I would like to find a Chinese teacher maybe at Lee that could start her — (they will have to be able to communicate with her) — I know we have several students and faculty who can do that… Yana is begging to be challenged — We will write her name on paper and she copies it really well… even when we do it in cursive, she does her very best — I just don’t think she was challenged at all at the orphanage — and when she gets her glasses/surgery or whatever it will take to help her eyes, her world will open up even more! She can name the parts of the face and count to 10 in English – just since we have had her…
This city is so empty of the presence of Christians — Well… every place we have been in so far — there are no markers of Christianity anywhere — we take that for granted in the U.S. — however I know our country is quickly turning its back on God — I am ashamed of that — There was a song that the 80′s group TRUTH used to sing — “There is a Hope” — which goes something like: (I can’t remember all the words)
Do you see the people in the street
Begging for a piece of bread
THey have no place to call their own,
No place to rest, to lay their head
Do you hear the voice of millions
Crying out in lost dispair…
THere is a hope, through all of life’s changes
There is a God,who’s always the same –
HOpe is found believing in His name
As we walked the streets looking for dinner — there were badly lame people just lying in the middle of the sidewalk, begging — someone had to lay them there – we had to have Abby close her eyes as we walked by, it was just too hard to look at- while a modern city just kept its pace – There were prostitutes that approached Bob (3 times so far and we have only been here 1 day!) and the people are moving around like it is so “normal” — Just such an empty feeling here– Muslims are very present here also… That song just kept playing in my head… I just wept for these people who do not know Christ — and the life He can give — my heart grieves for them.
Have to go get ready for the day now — and get my shower before the girls get up– I am ready to come home.